4.30.2005

A passing thought.


Lets face it, we were not meant to be
Both held on struggling inside to be free
What I meant, was not what u heard
And silently u and me suffered
I never felt secure, you never made me feel so
We were fighting a losing battle, people had warned us though
What we wanted from each other, was not what we got
We had starry dreams before; this wasn’t what we thought
When we went our own ways, we realized what we had done,
True we had started a new life; a new story had just begun
I am not sure now, I never am
The grass is greener on the other side
To want you, to not want you
Is something I can never decide.
Look at me now, I have probably changed,

Not knowing if it’s for good or bad
One thing’s for sure nothing is like before ,

This parting of ways has made us sad.
Together again is not what I hope for,

We really wont know what to say or do.
What is not good for the relationship ,

Is definitely not good for me and you.
I’ll put it this way, as we stand today ,

Neither are we foes nor are we friends
For others where the love begins,

For us that’s where the journey ends.




4.29.2005

Mr and Mr X !!

One thing that really intrigues me is same sex relationships.i mean i can never quite figure out how a girl can find another girl (or a guy and another guy) sexually attractive!!!
Its not something that disgusts me but its something that i am really curious about.
I mean all the debate about whether same sex marriages should be allowed and whether they are legal is in my opinion , a lot of political gobbledygook!!
A few years ago i was sitting along with my friends and we had an intense discussion on this(this was at around 3 am) and i said something like "animals dont do it,so its not natural!!"
That premise i now agree is fallacious because firstly i have no theory to prove the same and also because we do a lot of other things that animals dont indulge in.So do we stop doing them??i mean would we stop wearing clothes just because animals dont!!(This is not considering the scraps of clothing that are the current rage)On the contrary,its quite natural to see our pets being made to wear sweaters and scarves and even socks when its cold!!so are we de-naturalising them???
Gettin back to the topic, the basic question that almost anyone who is in favor of same sex relationships says is "who the hell are we to question anybody??" Unfortunately the way society works is mostly contrary to the law of freedom of expression and choice guaranteed to us by the constitution.But that not what i am talking about...I have come to know that in these kind of relationships,there is one who is more aggresive(the male) and the one who is submissive(the female).So even in a lesbian or gay relationship,the male-female relation comes through.
That bothers me...i mean why is it that these ppl find the masculine side of a female,or feminine side of a male attractive when thats how usual relations work??Then again maculinity has nothing to do with being male and the same holds true for feminity.
I know i cant imagine myself getting into lovers talk with a girl(the thought makes me laugh actually) but that doesnt prevent me from leching at women all the time!!!i mean a beautiful women is for everyone to see and admire.Men lech at women and women lech at women too.I dont think men lech at men,never heard of it.if they do,then thrs definitely more than meets the eye(and thats a male viewpoint!!)
But that bring me to another point...if we women lech at women and that is something all women would agree to indulge in ,is it because deep down ,we all are lesbians???
omigosh!!or os it because we lech at women because we are all basically bitchy and we cant let go of an oppurtunity to find fault with a good looking woman(the green eyed monster lurking inside needs a way out).Biologically,the male-female relationship seems to be the way to go,but with the advancements in science, we have succeeded in being two steps ahead of the natural way of things!!
There might come a time when all over the world ppl may introduce a couple as,"this is Mr X and this is his wife,Mr Y!!" For the sceptic that i am,i dont mind saying cheers to that!!